I know deep in my heart I was created to do something special. But what, I sometimes wonder? Is it to be a great teacher to hundreds of children? Is it to be the best servant leader in small group Bible study? God made me just who I am for a reason. God wants me to serve Him in some capacity. Is it to be a stay-at-home mom to my three children and wife extraordinaire to my sweet husband? I'm thinking...maybe, for now. Where I'm at is a good place for I'm so happy cooking, cleaning, and teaching my kids as one learns to read and the other two prepare for life in college. I'm able to be there, no REALLY be there for my family. They can call on me anytime day or night to talk through a monumental life question or discuss what the Bible says on any given subject. It's good that they trust me enough to just talk. I feel privileged that our relationship is such that they can do that with me. My kids are a blessing to me.
I worked full-time and part time for many years, but I was always pulled in so many directions. Now I'm only pulled in about 3 directions...one direction per child. It something I can handle. It's like going from having 32 kids in a classroom to only 20, but now I only have 3. I can HEAR them when they talk, and listen to what they're really saying. I can look into their eyes and read their body language. Most importantly I can be present when we are together instead of worrying about my lesson plans for the next day.
If I had my life to live all over again, I'd do it exactly the same. I've saved the best for last. I'm home with my family where I belong. I was created to be a wife and mother. My legacy belongs with them. For I know whatever I sow in their hearts today, they will sow in their children's hearts and their grandchildren's hearts after that. What I'm doing now may not seem all that important but I know over all it is affecting the future. My children will grow up knowing I loved them the best that I could. I gave them my all, not just a part of me.
I was created to be exactly who I am. I'm so glad I have friends that are closer than sisters, a sister who is a friend, a husband who loves me unconditionally, and children who call me "Mommie", "Mom", and "Mama". Life is good. Enjoy the time you have here on earth because it's short. Love your children with all your might. They are the reason we are created to be...