The Waiting Game

This "Waiting for China to Approve our Paperwork Game" isn't so fun anymore. People have always said that this was the hardest part of the adoption process because you know who your child is, you've seen pictures, you call her by name, you've gotten her room ready, you're half-packed with a zillion over-the-counter medications "just in case", and you just wait and wait and wait. There are good days when you just forget about the wait and dream of what life will be like with a little toddler running around the house and your heart smiles secretly inside. Then there are depressing days when you unsuccessfully wait for that phone call from the agency saying that we have our RA-referral approval. I know it will come in God's perfect time..."but God I thought this would've been the perfect time? :)" Anyway, it all just goes to show that I have no control over any of this, no matter how hard I try. Do we really have control over anything in our lives? I'm humbled by this reality and I guess that is my life lesson along with Prov. 3:5-6 "Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and he will make your paths straight."